I'm on a journey…

By Erik Farstad

I'm on a journey…

I wake up and see the same morning sun,
I hear the birds, smell the air, this isn't much fun.
I hurt and I cry, but I hide it inside.
I've got to be tough, no one's hear by my side.
I am alone, who are you?  You don't even care!
I feel like I'm dying, this isn't fair!

I look around and I see your face,
You smile and laugh, you say it's HIS grace.
Whose grace is for me, just look can't you see?
I'm nothing; I'm worthless just leave me be!
No one can love me; I'll be fine on my own.
I don't need anyone; I'm the king of my thrown.

When you've given up and turn to walk away,
I hang my head and cry, "No, I want you to stay!"
Where is my happiness?  What is life?  What is love?
Does anyone hear me?  Is there a God up above?
I want to reach out and hold you so close.
I'm scared, I've been hurt, by those that meant the most.

Oh, what's the use?  No one hears me for sure.
Yet somehow, somewhere, I will find the cure.
My loneliness will die; I'll find true love indeed.
I'll be ok; I'm really not in need.

Some say Jesus will take my pain away.
That HIS grace will fill me forever and today!
How can one man change so much?
He died on a cross, a cripple, needing a crutch.

I don't know?  I am happy?  I think, oh, who knows?
I guess I'll just see how my life goes.